What? Me listen!!!
Dear friends:
This morning I awoke, feeling a frustration of sorts. Part of it. I have way too much to do. Not enough time. And too little money. I have friends and family I want to spend time with. Places I want to go and people I want to see.
Two weeks ago we had to replace our pump for our well. Great...I got fantastic revelation, but a note from the Lord would have been sufficient. This week we were denied our home equity loan because of a few things, but mostly the type of property we have. (That has affected our insurance as well, as our radio tower is a considered an "attractive nuisance.") So, what happens to a septic, tank, roof and windows? Not really sure. Let me walk you through a scenario in my mind. Before we bought our home. I had a 3 bedroom place, a 2 car garage, trash, heat, and came and went when I desired. Now I have a lawn that needs mowing, a driveway to shovel, supply my own heat, etc., that costs me 4 times what the other place cost. I am doing an emotional struggle with this thought process. Then I opened my email to find once again I was the "victim" of some monkey business. Not the kind you can not clear up, but just the constant wearing down kind of thing that consumes time. So while Tina and Alyssa are shopping, both my boat and my motorcycle are sitting out there feeling as "lonely" as I am. And me...I have just spent 3 hours washing 2 loads of clothes(Oh yeah-dryer went this week.) and putting them outside, cleaning my office, watering plants, doing some dishes, boiling eggs and watching 2 children.
But in the process of the last week or so, I have had to face facts. Not everyone wants to be where I want to be. (Sometimes I am not sure I want to be where I want to be. :-) ) I am not even sure if I am hearing the Lord clearly right now. I am sure God speaks. Last weekend proved I hear from the Lord...for other people. But what about me? I have spent a lot of time with people who ask for help and never stop to see what needs to be changed. I am a "solutions" kind of person. I want to see it fixed and fixed quickly. No messing around. It was one of the reasons I found it easier to be a lone ranger than a frustrated team person. But 12 years of ministry and a couple of businesses where I saw the value of teamwork and I am heading my ship that way.
Our ministry is headed more and more to the streets. For instance, I will be speaking at a biker convention coming up. Not a Christian one. That ought to be a trip. Yesterday a biker had a conversation with me and asked me if I would go riding with him and his friends. Last week we had a talk about going to the campuses of New England again as we did last year with "A Quest for Spirituality." Me? I am just trying to make sure my reasons are good and Godly. Because part of the reason I am "outside" the church is because for the most part with few exceptions, the most exciting services I have ever been to, has paled in comparison to the street and what can and does occur there. I think Tina and I have come to the conclusion that our happiest days in ministry were spent in a nearby downtown with a team of 25 plus seeing God heal and deliver. The people that want to be there are the ones who listen. There is a grace to be out of the church and there is a grace to be in the church. Everyone has a different place to be. Yesterday, I heard a former heroin addict who died and went to HELL, say that he thought if Jesus was here today that He would not be in the church but in the bars. Wow! Now get this, my initial thought was "you are crazy." And then I thought about it.
My ministry is my business. Meaning my business is my ministry, my out pouring. I think I have nearly resolved that after no less than 20 serious words about it. With few exceptions, my closest friends are not in the church. I believe God is laughing that I finally am getting it. I love the streets. I love the people. And maybe just maybe...that is where the blessing will be. Maybe that will be the time of "coasting" I have sought. And that is tough. Because ALL I wanted to do was be IN the church. Just the other night we gathered with a few friends to pray for our loved ones and each other. And it was great.
I will say business people are easier to deal with. "Yes. I want it." or "No. I don't." Successful businesses make money. Unsuccessful ones don't. Much easier to read. And they pay for advice. They hire coaches and consultants. Why? Because they want to be successful. I have often thought "what people pay for ...they value." As I put together training from a biblical perspective for those in my business, I feel "fresh." I also feel tested. It is like climbing to the top of the high dive. It is a rush. At camp I would see if I could belly flop just to see what people's reactions would be. Anything for a rush. I remember jumping off a cliff on an island one time. 88 feet. You had to jump out to avoid the edge. I thought I would show off and "swan dive." Far cooler than my friends' cannonballs and can openers. Till I hit. My head snapped back. My chest exploded. End result? I looked like a piece of raw liver for 2 weeks.
So, am I listening? I sure hope so. The training center we envisioned is probably even different than I originally thought. But, I guess at this juncture I would rather fail for trying than wonder.
Blessings,
Lee
Prayer requests.
-Our Pre-Paid Legal and Identity Theft business would move ahead.
-The house needs would be met.
-My motorcycle painting series would be moving ahead. Pray for the artist, Julie, on this one.
-While we were in Maine, I came up with an idea that to the best of my research has not been done. I need divine contacts for a designer and a maker.
-I need a software designer to help me with my software concept.
Independent Manager
Group & Small Business Specialist
88 WCFR Drive Springfield, VT 05156
802-885-2885 Office 802-384-3993 Cell
Pre-Paid Legal & Identity Theft Shield
Certified Identity Theft Risk Management Specialist (CITRMS)
Servant Communications
This morning I awoke, feeling a frustration of sorts. Part of it. I have way too much to do. Not enough time. And too little money. I have friends and family I want to spend time with. Places I want to go and people I want to see.
Two weeks ago we had to replace our pump for our well. Great...I got fantastic revelation, but a note from the Lord would have been sufficient. This week we were denied our home equity loan because of a few things, but mostly the type of property we have. (That has affected our insurance as well, as our radio tower is a considered an "attractive nuisance.") So, what happens to a septic, tank, roof and windows? Not really sure. Let me walk you through a scenario in my mind. Before we bought our home. I had a 3 bedroom place, a 2 car garage, trash, heat, and came and went when I desired. Now I have a lawn that needs mowing, a driveway to shovel, supply my own heat, etc., that costs me 4 times what the other place cost. I am doing an emotional struggle with this thought process. Then I opened my email to find once again I was the "victim" of some monkey business. Not the kind you can not clear up, but just the constant wearing down kind of thing that consumes time. So while Tina and Alyssa are shopping, both my boat and my motorcycle are sitting out there feeling as "lonely" as I am. And me...I have just spent 3 hours washing 2 loads of clothes(Oh yeah-dryer went this week.) and putting them outside, cleaning my office, watering plants, doing some dishes, boiling eggs and watching 2 children.
But in the process of the last week or so, I have had to face facts. Not everyone wants to be where I want to be. (Sometimes I am not sure I want to be where I want to be. :-) ) I am not even sure if I am hearing the Lord clearly right now. I am sure God speaks. Last weekend proved I hear from the Lord...for other people. But what about me? I have spent a lot of time with people who ask for help and never stop to see what needs to be changed. I am a "solutions" kind of person. I want to see it fixed and fixed quickly. No messing around. It was one of the reasons I found it easier to be a lone ranger than a frustrated team person. But 12 years of ministry and a couple of businesses where I saw the value of teamwork and I am heading my ship that way.
Our ministry is headed more and more to the streets. For instance, I will be speaking at a biker convention coming up. Not a Christian one. That ought to be a trip. Yesterday a biker had a conversation with me and asked me if I would go riding with him and his friends. Last week we had a talk about going to the campuses of New England again as we did last year with "A Quest for Spirituality." Me? I am just trying to make sure my reasons are good and Godly. Because part of the reason I am "outside" the church is because for the most part with few exceptions, the most exciting services I have ever been to, has paled in comparison to the street and what can and does occur there. I think Tina and I have come to the conclusion that our happiest days in ministry were spent in a nearby downtown with a team of 25 plus seeing God heal and deliver. The people that want to be there are the ones who listen. There is a grace to be out of the church and there is a grace to be in the church. Everyone has a different place to be. Yesterday, I heard a former heroin addict who died and went to HELL, say that he thought if Jesus was here today that He would not be in the church but in the bars. Wow! Now get this, my initial thought was "you are crazy." And then I thought about it.
My ministry is my business. Meaning my business is my ministry, my out pouring. I think I have nearly resolved that after no less than 20 serious words about it. With few exceptions, my closest friends are not in the church. I believe God is laughing that I finally am getting it. I love the streets. I love the people. And maybe just maybe...that is where the blessing will be. Maybe that will be the time of "coasting" I have sought. And that is tough. Because ALL I wanted to do was be IN the church. Just the other night we gathered with a few friends to pray for our loved ones and each other. And it was great.
I will say business people are easier to deal with. "Yes. I want it." or "No. I don't." Successful businesses make money. Unsuccessful ones don't. Much easier to read. And they pay for advice. They hire coaches and consultants. Why? Because they want to be successful. I have often thought "what people pay for ...they value." As I put together training from a biblical perspective for those in my business, I feel "fresh." I also feel tested. It is like climbing to the top of the high dive. It is a rush. At camp I would see if I could belly flop just to see what people's reactions would be. Anything for a rush. I remember jumping off a cliff on an island one time. 88 feet. You had to jump out to avoid the edge. I thought I would show off and "swan dive." Far cooler than my friends' cannonballs and can openers. Till I hit. My head snapped back. My chest exploded. End result? I looked like a piece of raw liver for 2 weeks.
So, am I listening? I sure hope so. The training center we envisioned is probably even different than I originally thought. But, I guess at this juncture I would rather fail for trying than wonder.
Blessings,
Lee
Prayer requests.
-Our Pre-Paid Legal and Identity Theft business would move ahead.
-The house needs would be met.
-My motorcycle painting series would be moving ahead. Pray for the artist, Julie, on this one.
-While we were in Maine, I came up with an idea that to the best of my research has not been done. I need divine contacts for a designer and a maker.
-I need a software designer to help me with my software concept.
Independent Manager
Group & Small Business Specialist
88 WCFR Drive Springfield, VT 05156
802-885-2885 Office 802-384-3993 Cell
Pre-Paid Legal & Identity Theft Shield
Certified Identity Theft Risk Management Specialist (CITRMS)
Servant Communications
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