No more shock and awe
Dear friends-
Last night I was awakened at about 2:30. The presence of "darkness" was all about me. I clearly heard "you are going to die." Needless to say I began to pray. I prayed on and off for about 2 plus hours. For friend, family, situations and the like. I was not frightened by this darkness, just surprised. Hmmm. A Christian who is surprised. I thought God revealed all things to His prophets. On the other hand the stress related to more flooding brought me to a place of chest pains and saying, "why God, I think I am processing this correctly." I will admit I feel helpless. I am a list person and I like the idea of removing things from that list. I have developed habits of keeping the list small, just so my life is relatively stress free. Only yesterday as I was vaccing water for day 5, I was confronted with the fact that the escrow lawyer was now playing games. So much so, I am headed to my bank to have a serious sit down.
But, as I prayed I processed things about how people see things in this day and age. The other day a ministry friend had sent me a letter about the 10 commandments and the reason people are who they are. Last night I watched the revelation come forth about Obama's relationship with a man who wrote a book dedicated to many in prison including Sirhan Sirhan. Sirhan Sirhan? That's the guy who killed Robert Kennedy. So, not to get political but I would think it would bother the Kennedy's but apparently not.
I remember exactly where I was when I heard about Robert Kennedy. I remember thinking about the heartbreak that family was going through. I was shocked. I was in awe that it could happen again and I was only in 8th grade. We used to care about such things. Murder and assassinations bothered us. No it appears we compartmentalize things by "oh well, that will not happen to me." Folks, I have friends dying from cancer, others attacked by cancer, broken marriages and the like and it affects me. I still stand in shock at those things . I still am awed by the blessings of God.
My life is a mess right now. I no longer really know who I am or where I am going or what I am doing. What is the next step? But I hope I never get to the place that I can not feel or have hope.
And here is a final thought. Perhaps this is the answer to my questions about why we do not feel shock or awe. Only this morning, I received this. http://www.homelandsecurityus.com/20081012YB
Blessings,
Lee
Pillars Of Clouds& Fire Ministries
88 WCFR Drive
Springfield, Vermont 05156
802-384-3993
Building relationships for the goodness of our region.
www.pocafministries.org
Last night I was awakened at about 2:30. The presence of "darkness" was all about me. I clearly heard "you are going to die." Needless to say I began to pray. I prayed on and off for about 2 plus hours. For friend, family, situations and the like. I was not frightened by this darkness, just surprised. Hmmm. A Christian who is surprised. I thought God revealed all things to His prophets. On the other hand the stress related to more flooding brought me to a place of chest pains and saying, "why God, I think I am processing this correctly." I will admit I feel helpless. I am a list person and I like the idea of removing things from that list. I have developed habits of keeping the list small, just so my life is relatively stress free. Only yesterday as I was vaccing water for day 5, I was confronted with the fact that the escrow lawyer was now playing games. So much so, I am headed to my bank to have a serious sit down.
But, as I prayed I processed things about how people see things in this day and age. The other day a ministry friend had sent me a letter about the 10 commandments and the reason people are who they are. Last night I watched the revelation come forth about Obama's relationship with a man who wrote a book dedicated to many in prison including Sirhan Sirhan. Sirhan Sirhan? That's the guy who killed Robert Kennedy. So, not to get political but I would think it would bother the Kennedy's but apparently not.
I remember exactly where I was when I heard about Robert Kennedy. I remember thinking about the heartbreak that family was going through. I was shocked. I was in awe that it could happen again and I was only in 8th grade. We used to care about such things. Murder and assassinations bothered us. No it appears we compartmentalize things by "oh well, that will not happen to me." Folks, I have friends dying from cancer, others attacked by cancer, broken marriages and the like and it affects me. I still stand in shock at those things . I still am awed by the blessings of God.
My life is a mess right now. I no longer really know who I am or where I am going or what I am doing. What is the next step? But I hope I never get to the place that I can not feel or have hope.
And here is a final thought. Perhaps this is the answer to my questions about why we do not feel shock or awe. Only this morning, I received this. http://www.homelandsecurityus.com/20081012YB
Blessings,
Lee
Pillars Of Clouds& Fire Ministries
88 WCFR Drive
Springfield, Vermont 05156
802-384-3993
Building relationships for the goodness of our region.
www.pocafministries.org
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